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Rapeseed's Harvest

© Sarah Allegra

I was thinking about what I would say to accompany this self portrait, which (probably obviously, belongs to both m...
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© Sarah Allegra

I was thinking about what I would say to accompany this self portrait, which (probably obviously, belongs to both my DreamWorld, http:--sarahallegra.com-DreamWorld.html, and Eternal Storms, http:--www.sarahallegra.com-EternalStorms.html, series) and pondering how to explain what long-term clinical depression feels like to those who haven't experienced it. It's not the same as just being sad or upset, it's a stain on your soul which you can't ever blot out. Out, out, damn spot. A stain which not only looks ugly, but spreads like a cancer and does you actual harm, emotionally, physically and mentally.

Depression, especially when it gets really bad, feels like your brain is beating and gang-raping your soul every day while the rest of the world goes about their business, either not noticing, or at best stopping to take cell phone videos of your torment, but offering no help. And much like the unjustified stigma and shame victims of abuse feel, people who have trouble with depression and who don't feel excited about being alive are often subject to the same kinds of judgements. We must enjoy wallowing in our own emotional filth, or else we'd just get up, dust ourselves off and go be happy, right? Or, ok, maybe it's really a chemical imbalance thing; so just take an anti-depressant and let's all get on with our lives, all right? And she was wearing a short skirt, so she was asking for it.

I wish it worked like that; I wish it was that easy.

Read more about this self portrait, its meaning and creation here on my blog: https:--sarahallegra.wordpress.com-2017-03-20-creating-rapeseeds-harvest-

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