Never Alone Again

© Sarah Allegra

"The sentience envelopes me while I sleep... I awaken with a gasp in a strange bed. No, it's not the bed that's ...
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© Sarah Allegra

"The sentience envelopes me while I sleep... I awaken with a gasp in a strange bed. No, it's not the bed that's strange - it's the same one I've slept in since I was a child...

The strangeness is that I am not alone, here in my bed. I will never be alone again.

I feel it slithering out of the darkness for the first time, the presence that's been whispering its sinister enigmas. A living, breathing thing - cold stars and glittering mathematics with the inhale, hot copper and rotten fruit with the exhale. Foreign from anything I have ever known. Other."

I recently re-read a book I love which has already inspired a number of self portraits: Demons In The Age Of Light, by Whitney Robinson. It's a memoir of hers about a psychotic break she had and questions what really went on inside her. To her, it felt like a demonic possession. To her doctors, it looked like, and was diagnosed as, schizophrenia. Spirit and science clash in her body and mind in this beautifully, poetically written novel.

I loved how the usually comforting, loving idea of never being alone has been turned in this passage into something deeply wrong and full of dread. I wanted to try and capture that feeling just before she was overtaken by the being she calls the Other, of knowing the possession is imminent and you are helpless to stop it. And of course I used my favorite little lamp to light the scene, exactly as it's shown in the image.

I wasn't planning on uploading this on Valentine's Day, but I suppose it does make a dark, sinister anti-Valentine's-Day image, haha!

I finally updated my blog! Read about the past year, my health and my coming out of the spiritual closet.

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© Sarah Allegra

"The sentience envelopes me while I sleep... I awaken with a gasp in a strange bed. No, it's not the bed that's strange - it's the same one I've slept in since I was a child...

The strangeness is that I am not alone, here in my bed. I will never be alone again.

I feel it slithering out of the darkness for the first time, the presence that's been whispering its sinister enigmas. A living, breathing thing - cold stars and glittering mathematics with the inhale, hot copper and rotten fruit with the exhale. Foreign from anything I have ever known. Other."

I recently re-read a book I love which has already inspired a number of self portraits: Demons In The Age Of Light, by Whitney Robinson. It's a memoir of hers about a psychotic break she had and questions what really went on inside her. To her, it felt like a demonic possession. To her doctors, it looked like, and was diagnosed as, schizophrenia. Spirit and science clash in her body and mind in this beautifully, poetically written novel.

I loved how the usually comforting, loving idea of never being alone has been turned in this passage into something deeply wrong and full of dread. I wanted to try and capture that feeling just before she was overtaken by the being she calls the Other, of knowing the possession is imminent and you are helpless to stop it. And of course I used my favorite little lamp to light the scene, exactly as it's shown in the image.

I wasn't planning on uploading this on Valentine's Day, but I suppose it does make a dark, sinister anti-Valentine's-Day image, haha!

I finally updated my blog! Read about the past year, my health and my coming out of the spiritual closet: https://sarahallegra.wordpress.com/2018/02/09/a-very-late-2017-high-low-coming-out-of-the-spiritual-closet

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