gabrielrosario

Surrender to The Wind

Looking back at this moment, it's been a real crazy ride sense then. As I reflect on that time, I feel like I'm finally returning back full circle. It...
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Looking back at this moment, it's been a real crazy ride sense then. As I reflect on that time, I feel like I'm finally returning back full circle. It's such an indescribable feeling to see who you were and reflect on the time that has passed. After being thrown off my tracks and going through an incredibly bumpy ride down the mountain, I'm just so glad to be alive and well. Soon, finally thank God soon I will be able to start over, and I just can't wait to see where the next chapter in life will lead me!

It's okay to struggle, but you can't shut yourself out. Don't be afraid to be vulnerable and break that silent barrier you have between you and the world. It's okay. It gets better, and you'll feel 100x better for making it through. Reach out when you feel like you are alone. Seek help if you can't get a grip.

Old journal entry:

Feb 19, 2017
"I feel alone. Even amongst friends, or family. I don't feel a part of this world. I dream high, but life seems so bare, and I'm empty inside. I feel nothing when I should feel happy or excited. I am sad that nothing I do is for me. I just hold on taking things day by day, but each day feels like I'm slipping more and more into a deep dark hole, and no one's there to catch me. The night keeps me up, and while everyone goes on with their day, I am asleep dreaming. And when my eyes open before the sun goes down, I see nothing that I am proud of, nothing to call mine. I don't want to talk anymore, I don't want to keep dreaming, I just want to have control, to live happily and create and to feel part of something. I need me, and I need life."

... I need art, I need experience, I need the challenge of life, and I must accept that challenge.
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