When You Get to The Bottom

“When you get to the bottom, there is endlessly more.”
I’m not sure what exactly lies behind those words that The Dangerous Summer wrote, but they hit me the first time I heard them. Hit me like I knew right away I had to make art about it. I wrote that line down, I put the song on my art playlist, and I thought about it a lot. I had someone model for me last year, and I told her about the line and we created some poses, not knowing myself exactly what the final piece would look like. Those photos sat on my harddrive and I would circle back, but I didn’t see it yet.

Later in the year, I visited a cenote in Mexico and to get to the water you had to walk through a bit of a cavern. That spot inspired me, I walked back after my swim and took some terribly noisy photos. I wasn’t sure what I’d use it for, but I felt like it would come in handy.
It wasn’t until peak quarantine that I made the connection between the images. Suddenly, I could see it.

“When you get to the bottom, there is endlessly more.”
This line made me think about how when you think you’ve reached the depth of the darkness, there’s more darkness to find. More demons. More questions. More fights to fight.
It feels never ending. Maybe it is never ending.
I can only hope the depth of light can match the depth of the dark.
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