Projected || Innocence Lost || Introspective

Nearly a decade ago, and during a very dark time in my life following the suicide of my fiancée, I found myself castigated by nearly everyone I knew aside from...
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Nearly a decade ago, and during a very dark time in my life following the suicide of my fiancée, I found myself castigated by nearly everyone I knew aside from a few of my oldest friends. When I hit rock bottom, I put everything I had into photography and developing my base level skills as a creative outlet. One night, while watching a movie where a GOBO was used to map the word "demon" across the anti-hero, I had a spark of inspiration. Within an hour, I had built a homemade projector using a flashlight, a soldering clip, and a pair of magnifying glasses. I started brainstorming a list of words and short phrases that I felt best described how I felt others saw me and my situation; things like "demon," "child," "wanting, and "struggling in faith" topped the list. I threw a transparency sheet into my printer, and never looked back. While I culled the set from that night down to a dozen of what I felt were the most poignant, this one was, and always has been, my favorite of that night.

As the years passed by, my situation improved drastically, but two things stuck with me - the memories of the darkest places in the human psyche, and a love affair with GOBOS and projection mapping.
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